If you desire to be a leader of disciples, you must beware. “Sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it” (Gen. 4:7, NIV) The biggest challenge we face as leaders is the mastery of our private self. What am I when no one is looking?
Alas, and did my Savior bleed and did my Sovereign die?
Would He devote that sacred head for sinners such as I?
Was it for crimes that I had done, he groaned upon the tree?
Amazing pity, grace unknown, and love beyond degree!
I shudder to think of the whip on Jesus’ back. I do not want to imagine the cat-of-nine-tails bruising and cutting him for me. Yet I persist in my sin, heaping pain on him. Are you too weak to embrace the pain of rejecting secret sin when he took the whip and nails for you? By his stripes we are healed. They are his gift to you. Allow the image of his stripes to overpower private sin. That is your gift to him. Our choice is to either be healed or hold the whip.
Well might the sun in darkness hide, and shut His glories in,
When Christ the mighty Maker died for man, the creature’s sin.
But drops of grief can ne’er repay the debt of love I owe
Here, Lord, I give myself away, ‘Tis all that I can do.
Watts, “Alas, and Did My Savior Bleed,” Public Domain.
— Mark Powers